Rejected!

Today I received my very first rejection letter for a reporter/anchor position and I feel great! Obviously, I’d be much happier if I had gotten the job, but for now I am simply glad to be acknowledged. I submitted my package over a month ago, so receiving a letter is giving me hope that my applications are being reviewed, my letters are being read, and my reels are being seen.

I have made it a point to send out at least one package a day. This is costing me so much money because some stations are still asking for VHS as opposed to DVD, and I must overnight all my packages to make sure they get it fast. I send out about 10-12 weekly. For now, I try not to think of the costs, and dreaming about the outcome. Like with anything else, you gotta pay the price for what you want. This is something I really want!

The waiting period has been fun. I have been thinking of my other talents and how I can best utilize them while waiting for my big break. I got a gig as an instructor for the marines in Camp Pendleton. This is kind of a big deal. The marines are great and I am truly impressed with everything I have seen so far. The guys are amazing, respectful, and extremely sharp. They are also young (my age) and have already seen and experienced so much.

I have also had time to reflect a lot. I made it a point to not accept an office from my sorority alumni group because I cannot make the one year commitment. I also decided not to be a BigSis because I wouldn’t want to leave a young girl halfway through the program and cause anymore attachment problems. My LifeGroup dispersed because I need to start the transition process. Now I wonder if those decisions were good. I have started to isolate myself—as I prepare myself for even more isolation (if I do end up moving).

I suppose this is definitely the time to turn to the Lord and ask for his plans, his sovereignty over my life. I must pray for wisdom and discernment. Not to act too fast too soon because I could be missing something grand happening in the moment. Who knows where I’ll end up. I fully trust that the Lord with provide.